Daring To Move

Between who you are and who you could be / Between how it is and how it should be / I dare you to move.

-Switchfoot

I'm finally moving. Toward what exactly is still undecided, but a where has been chosen. In about 18 hours I will be landing in Portland to begin this new adventure trying to figure out what I want to do/be/see.

I've slacked off on my blogging this past year (obviously I made it out of Switzerland). It seems as though nothing I planned came out as I would have liked. After returning from Europe, I became obsessed with getting out of BTown any way I could. I decided to go back to university and finish my second degree (Spanish) and my minor (Int'l business) in hopes of making myself more marketable in the job field. I loved college and missed that environment (I know, I was just as shocked as anyone to find myself missing sitting in a classroom taking notes). I put in my notice at work and began making plans when my aunt, a career counselor, sat me down and tried to reason with me. As she pointed out, if I was going to try to improve my chances of landing that dream job (whatever that may be at this point), I needed to basically go big or stay at home. I needed to go for my masters. Problem is, most programs around here wanted my arm, leg, or kidney for tuition. I set my sights abroad: Australia.

I began dreaming about Australia after a sorority sister of mine told me about her sister getting her masters there. The program at the University of Queensland was one of the cheapest and most prestigious I could find. Smackdab in the hustle and bustle of Brisbane (pop. 2 million), it was ideal. It put me back into the city life I missed about Alicante, where I studied in Spain, as well as quenching my thirst for something fun, different, and possibly stupid. I needed to take a risk there or risk dying of sheer boredom back home. I applied, got accepted (who knew being American was aparently 'exotic' and just what a university was looking for??), started crunching numbers, and talking with an old high school friend who lived down there. Then came the winter and eastern Australia suddenly became one big swimming pool. The floods began to creep in around Brisbane, finally taking over parts of the city where UQ is located. I watched the cost of living go up. I began to seriously look at how long it would take for me to pay back my student loans (approx. $30,000 in just tuition fees as well as the costs of getting me to Australia and dealing with a currency conversion that was, once again, not in my favor). The more I crunched the numbers, the more I realized that, unless I want to travel again before I am 50, this would not work out at the moment. I like the idea that I can marry rich, however I don't want that to be my only option.

So, once again, I was screwed and still stuck in BTown.

Around this same time, I flew to Portland for the weekend to visit my good amiga, Jessica. Jess and I are pretty similar in our wanderlust, love of everything from Spain, and knowledge that there is more to life (at least for us anyways) than can be found back home. Each time I've visited Jess and our friends, I've been drawn to the lifestyle found over there. It's not about settling down and having kids, these people are about careers and traveling and living in the moment. I know that this kind of lifestyle isn't for everyone, the same way settling down isn't for me, but I am pulled toward this creative outlet. During this trip and in the month that followed, all I thought about was Portland and what I could make of myself over there. So, I'm finally taking that leap. It may have not been my first choice, but it's where I feel like I need to be. I'm going to miss my friends over here tremendously, you guys have been my saving grace these past two & a half years. You've kept me alive, sane, and caffinated, and for that I'll be forever grateful. I've become so reliant on my family again too. I'm going to miss singing in the car with my dad, girls' days with mom, lunch every Friday at the Stagecoach with grandpa. I'm going to miss this feeling of comfort and contentment, but I need to go. Some of my friends have questioned why I'm going. Some of flatout said it was a bad idea. To them, I throw out this song lyric because it's the only thing that seems to make the most sense to me.

"It's gotta get better it can't get worse / Hope it's a blessing not a curse / I don't care who passes judgement on my reasons / I know staying's worse than leaving"

-Sunny Sweeney

So here we go, folks. I'm leaving to find a job and a place to live (so I can move off of Jess' couch) and most importantly, find something that makes sense. I don't know if I'll succeed in finding whatever it is I need, but I'm going to try. I'm daring myself to move, even if it's just a few hours away. Talk to you soon.

-kp-

Waking Up in Switzerland

"A traveler without observation is like a bird without wings." -Saadi

Hey guys! Just a quick update: We made it to Switzerland and we awoke near the foot of the Matterhorn (who knew it was more than just a Disney thing :P). Holy cow, the Alps are freaking amazing!! We are chilling in Zermatt which is officially one of my favorite spots in all of the world thus far. Unfortunately it is also one of the most expensive (think of a ski town like Vail on steroids). We even saw some skiers coming down off the mountain last night when we were walking through town. Speaking of walking, we have been doing a lot of that and some limping thrown in for good measure. Dad's ankles swelled up last night for some reason, I'm battling shin splints, and the bumps and bruises keep on coming, but it's well, well worth it! I still can't believe we managed to get the whole crew here. Italy was phenominal even in the rain. The town where Scott lived is seriously the most quaint little walled town you will ever see. There will definitely be pictures posted the moment we get back.

Live. Love. Travel. Learn.
-kp-

Backpacking Through Europe (with my Parents)

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” – Mark Twain

My parents were a couple of visionaries when it came to traveling with young children in the late '80s/ early 90's. Long before giant, gas-guzzling SUVs with built-in split-screen monitors for the kiddies, my brother, Scott and I had our 1980 gas-guzzling (with the tendency to try and break down in the middle of the Nevada desert) maroon van with plush velvet-like seats that we melted into (sometimes literally... the air conditioning liked to break as well). One sat in one of the middle seats and the other in the back row (usually whoever wasn't as prone to motion sickness at that point) and we watched movies during the entire two-day trip from the northwest to sunny SoCal or the Oregon Coast. During that time my father, who worked at a local tv station, would set up our abnormally large video camera (one of the first meant for home use, the kind that used to use VHS tapes to record and you had to sling over your shoulder like the tv camera men of today). He'd hook it up to a five-inch portable tv we had and my parents would enjoy the relative silence as Scott and I watched hours and hours of the same movie over and over again. Sadly for my dad, who was stuck driving most of the time, we weren't technological enough to think of headphones so he got to listen in as well. Dad still talks about how he could quote Homeward Bound (oh, Michael J. Fox and your "Bat dog!" line) from beginning to end before he ever saw the movie a few years later.

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Fast forward a good 20 years or so. I am now 24 and Scott, just shy of 22. We still like to travel with our parents now and then, something you don't see everyday with people of our generation. Scott and I went away to the same university 300 miles north of where we grew up. Even after moving out, we still did two trips down to Disneyland with our parents to celebrate various milestones. (P.S. Mickey Mouse + margaritas + not having any young kids with you makes Disneyland truly the happiest place on earth). Now Scott is living outside of Rome, studying Italian, and having the time of his life. And finally after many, many years of trying to get our parents to travel over there (plus countless hours/days of justifying the expense), we have convinced them to spend three weeks speed traveling through Europe. The added bonus is Scott is already there and I have a job allowing me to take some time off, so all four of us will be trekking through seven countries in 21 days. Let the fun begin :D

Mom has never been to Europe. Dad lived in Germany for a summer when he was 17 (the same summer man landed on the moon). Needless to say, travel through Europe has changed a bit since he was there last. Scott and I are becoming pros at navigating through post-9/11 airports, crazy-dirty hostels, and not getting mugged by gypsies. Between the two of us we've been to at least twenty-three countries and still have all our fingers, toes, and wits about us. We've done the traveling with one carry-on bag before. This time we're doing the full-on backpacking experience with my 50-something parents and 60 liter packs. They're stoked, I'm stoked, and will be ready with a camera for every priceless moment (including every time my mom's going to squeal when she sees various landmarks like the Eiffel Tower). My parents rock my world.

We leave in about a week. Barring any man made or natural disasters (I'm looking at you, Icelandic volcano, which I can't pronounce or spell) we will be back sometime in June.

Feel Good Thursday

"Life is too important to be taken seriously. -Oscar Wilde

A few things that just make you feel good:

Reading a good book on a sunny day in your backyard. Scented candles when the power's out. Coffee dates with the girls. Chocolate chunk cookies. Summer thunderstorms. That feeling you get when the plane lifts off the ground. A hug from mom. A homecooked meal. Catching up with an old friend. Ben & Jerry's ice cream. Music, especially an old favorite. Being able to pay your own bills and do your own taxes. Locking eyes with a cute stranger. Quoting old-school Disney movies or Looneytunes. Singing out loud without fear of embarrassment. Bright red nail polish. Freshly shaved legs against clean sheets. Sleeping in past 10. Staying up late. Traveling by train. A good dark beer/red wine/favorite adult beverage at your favorite pub. A three-day weekend. Vacation. Day trips anywhere but here. Gilmore Girls/Big Bang Theory/Chuck marathons. Making smores. Falling asleep under the stars. Alaska summers. White Christmas'. Cute firefighters. Driving faster than you should on a deserted backroad. Grabbing five or six redbox movies just because they're a buck. Eating out more often than you ate at your own place for a week/month/forever. Traveling like a local. Seeing places you've only read about. Planning trip based on where your finger lands on the globe. Taking a motorcycle instead of a car. That feeling you get when you've come home after a long trip. First kiss with a new person. Changing into your pjs after a long day at work. The smell of fresh-cut grass. Spring flowers. Fall leaves crunching under your feet. Swimming in a river/lake/ocean. Watching a young child discover something new. Feeling a summer wind on your face. Belly laughs. Happy tears. That person who you can vent to no matter what. Being with family and friends. BBQs. Guilty pleasures. Warm towels right out of the dryer. Finding that perfect whatever and discovering it's on sale. Snowball fights. Running through sprinklers. Sparklers on the 4th of July. Blowing bubbles. Playing on the swings in the park no matter how old you are. Bowling on a Saturday night. Singing karaoke really off key. Remembering a really good dream. Finding $20 from last year in your winter jacket. Frozen hershey kisses (trust me). Remembering that no matter how much a day may suck, there's still a lot that can make a day better again. :D -kp-

Living life as I know it

The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.

-Albert Einstein

Sometimes things don't go quite as you had planned. Sometimes your plans seem trivial once you finally get to them. And sometimes, if you're like me, there are no real plans. I'm a go-with-the-flow kinda girl. I make lists that I never look at once the last word's written. I don't ask for directions. I don't like being told what to do. I certainly don't like it when people ask me "Why aren't you married yet?" or "Why would you ever think of leaving here again [the town where I grew up and where I find myself living once more]?" To say it nicely, I'm a bit of a strange breed in this town. I am single, 24, and in no rush to settle down.

I grew up in this town [BTown, I'll call it], when it was still considered a town. Now it's a city with suburbs and sprawl, pollution and congestion, and the conservative undertones that come from a rather vocal religious affiliation. Most of the people from my high school graduating class are already married, some on their second marriage, with kids and mortgages and soccer games. I'm here with two roommates, three cats [mine came with the house, the other two with my roommate], and more takeout boxes in the fridge than actual ingredients. I went away to college, lived abroad, fell in love, earned a degree, fell out of love, worked on a boat in Alaska, and then made my way back home to spend some time around my family. The idea/'plan'/hope was to move back abroad after a while to see more of the world before settling down. That was a year and a half ago. I'm beginning to see that hope fade. I'm stuck in a rut like many twentysomethings who can't seem to find their footing in the real world. It doesn't make it any easier that we have set out to find ourselves in a world when the economic situation could be better. I've read that we could become the 'lost generation'. Isn't that a pleasant thought? Feeling like this for the rest of our lives? Awesome.

So I'm here. Staring at the computer screen late at night after getting home from work and trying to figure out just what I'm going to do with myself. And just when life begins to fall into the same routines, something little- like a staredown with a good-looking stranger across the street or an impromptu road/plane/train trip just to get away- makes life seem a bit brighter or, at the very least, more entertaining. Anyone else feel the same way?